Well, so far so good, no pains anywhere, but I get sleepy in the afternoon. I can live with that. Actually, I have been feeling so well. I sometimes can't believe I went through all the discomfort and pain in December. Not knowing what the matter was with me. Than the ultrasound, CT scan, colonoscopy and operation and recuperation. Was that me I sometimes wonder? If ever I experienced the presence of the Lord it has to be the last few months.
In our total lifetime, things like these are just a nuisance, a shaping. I have not worried and am not worried now, I am totally at peace, enjoying the moments.
I am 65 years old, sssshhhht!
My childhood especially my teenage years were far from happy. I have a pile of diaries to back this up. I wrote page after page to keep my sanity. Since they are all in Dutch, nobody is able to read them. Yvonne and also Jennifer have asked me to translate them, even offered to help type. But even though it might be nice for them. As I could leave out the tragic stuff, such as a stepmother saga and leave all the things about boys, boys and more boys. I still find it difficult to have to sift through it all. But all those experiences made me the person I am today.
In those days all I wanted was to have a husband, be a mother for my very own children. Oh and yes, because I had a weight problem, I wanted to be skinny, yes really. Well, I got all that and more. My (our) children got married. (What good choices they've made!!) And I (we)have grandchildren. That is more than I bargained for. Bringing up Ron, Paul and Yvonne has been for us such a blessing. I have found out that I never stop being a caring Mom. I am very pleased that they still need me. Even though it seems only for baby sitting!
I did not mean to write all this, it was meant to be just an update. Oh well.....
Love Trudy
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