I'm still here!

Sorry I haven’t blogged. It’s been a difficult and eventful couple weeks. I’ve had two eye surgeries (one eye, a couple weeks ago and last week the same procedure on the other eye), another small procedure to remove some ‘suspicious’ spots on my skin, a couple serious dental procedures, and my general cancer-check-up rounds of bloodtests and scans.All and all adding up to $2000.00 plus.

Sometimes it’s just all so overwhelming. It’s one thing to deal with your own health issues, but then throw in a spouse who is just as ill, and you have me. Sometimes I just don’t know WHAT to blog. I don’t want to complain, so I don't write anything. People keep asking for an update...but when things are tough…what do you say? I have had a couple calls from friends, which I really do appreciate. The problem comes when people want me to go out or come over (their well-meaning attempt to reach out to me) I hate to say ‘no’. But sometimes saying ‘no’ is simply what’s best for me. As lonely as I can become, I just don’t have the energy to go out. The older I become (and Ted can attest to this), what my mind wants to do and what my body will allow me to do are two different things.

So what do you do when you feel alone, but don’t have the energy to be with people? I suppose you hope they leave a “you’re not alone” comment on your blog, give you a call sometime just to say “I’m thinking of you” and hope they understand your lack of social interaction. Aging sucks.